test

is literally a test because wordpress is poopy and making me suffer. So many things have popped up, just because I put the wrong email address when I bought the account. The site has launched and then unlaunched somehow and there is a teeny tiny possibility it unlaunches again and I figure, hey, why not put a post on the site. Maybe thats what they are waiting for. This is not how I envisioned my first post going but I guess it actually is exactly like me for shit to start this way. Somehow I pay attention to everything except what matters. Does part of my brain just assume that the basic things are all taken care of. I feel like alot of my life is me trying to design the interior of a home or something and I put all these interesting ideas into it and go to my investors and I say, “Here, isn’t this gonna be awesome?” and they just tell me the foundation they poured before I started actually doesnt have any plumbing in it so you’re gonna have to spend your time figuring that shit out or you’re gonna have to spend a bunch of money to have some one else take care of this incredibly complex and important issue that you just assumed wasn’t gonna pop up. I don’t even understand this website. If I start a new paragraph it makes it a new “Block” and while im sure that’s normal and they basically mean the same thing, I don’t understand why you would think it’d a good idea to get rid of the paragraph as a concept. I don;t know about you but I happen to think paragraphs are a pretty essential part of literally all writing in any capacity and now I can’t just make a paragraph? I’m gonna try it. I guess this is a test post so who gives a flip. The only person that will ever read this will be my parents probably. Hi, mom and dad. Sorry I sound pissed off. I’m gonna start a new paragraph now.

Wait. How do I indent? I had to scroll over and hit space a few times. What do people do on this site where it doesn’t just indent. I realize that it is on me to figure out how this stuff works AND that wordpress provides me with a whole host of learning tools and tutorials but my brain is so annoying that it just assumes that they will have developed it ina the most intuitive way possible and that if I hit enter, as I have done on every other typing software I’ve ever used, that it will indent and start a new paragraph. Now I’m starting a new block?

Is my first post just gonna be the whine fest with indentations that are really small? Sure I like to complain but what will people think of me when they read this? Oh wait. Nobody will ever read this. Heckers yes! I don’t actually need to worry about it. In fact, I’ll be happier if this site gets no traffic at all for like 3 months of writing because it will let me get used to it before outside influences can tell my brain what to do. Well actually, nobody would tell me to change it probably and I don’t care if I make money so the influences aren’t so much “outside” as they are almost entirely an interior overreaction to outside events that actually have no further meaning.

I’m hitting post now. I’m not gonna go back and edit this. I just need to chill. Literally no one cares about this except me so why try to make it better for nonexistent readers? I have some serious issues I need to work out but that will be for when I’m not pissed off.